Blessings in Disguise
I just want to share with you how God loves me so much and remind me to see and understand how He blessed and will bless me in his own ways. This will be my theme song for at least the rest of the year .
This time He works through my daughter, Michelle.
One day, when my daughter play with her favorite apps on my iPad in my bedroom, and I was in the living room, suddenly she came with the iPad and play a song ‘Blessing – Laura Story’ from youtube and give the iPad to me. She was 18 months old that time.
Just to get you the idea about what I will talk about, here’s the lyrics:
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things
‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we’d have faith to believe
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not our home
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise
When I heard this song it’s just all so true. I pray for blessings for my family, my wife, my daughter, for the protection, prosperity, and hope that we will never put under pressure and suffering.
The truth is, what I’m always looking for is comfort for myself and my family. As we know, it’s one of the most dangerous thing in Christians life.
This song reminds me to repent and I’m really missed the adventure that makes me more dependable and know Him better.
So I prayed, ” God, if it’s really takes a thousand sleepless nights, if I need to go through rain and storms, only to make me understand that you are always be with me and help me to understand your love and mercies in disguise, so let it be. Just please give me strength to walk it through.”
You know what? It didn’t take long before He answer that prayer. I think He is just so excited to process me
Few weeks after that, so many things happen. I’m really stressed out, emotionally and financially. Cut it short, I’m buying a house with stretched out budget, and then later on I knew that my wife is pregnant with our second child.
A VERY BAD TIMING……..according to me. To be honest, I questioned God why He let this happen in the same time. Financially I’m at the critical moment.
In short while, God reminds me about the song again and Matthew 6: 31-32 says “So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them”. He reminds me that I’m not a pagans and I have a Father know my needs.
I repent and apologize to my wife for I was really thinking this second child is a burden instead of blessing. We cried together. He corrected my mindset and I pray blessing for this second child. It’s really a blessing in disguise. I joked with my wife, “The verse says do not worry about what we eat, drink, or wear. But why don’t God said anything about a house ?? “.
Just to recall, before we decide to buy the house, God actually gave signs. Michelle suddenly love to play with her lego blocks and building towers. Later on, we noticed that it was a sign that God will provide us a house (reserved for another post about how He provides for the house). Another sign was she also suddenly loves to play with her baby doll, just a few days before my wife took the pregnancy test. I’m still amazed how God can use Michelle to give signs. Need to pay more attention on what she’s doing/saying from now on
Actually, until now, buying the house and thinking how to complete the down payment, plus the budget for baby delivery still give me headache and some sleepless nights. BUT, it’s worth it. It’s worth it because this is the answer to my prayer; To know Him better; To know that He’s always near; To see His love and mercies in disguise.
P.s: I feel that God made me buy the house first so that my second child have a home, not just a rented bedroom. This also fulfill what God put in my heart early this year that, someway, I’ll move to another house this year even though I’m quite comfortable with current rented bedroom.